darn it...

haiz...yest...suddenly the guy contacted me back!!haiz...i juz get over him...

but now,everything is ruined...erm,he operated his leg...sumthin 2 do wit his urat kaki..i was shocked when i heard tat...wuteva izit,i replied his msg..n we chatted 4 a while...(nuthin much 2 say...juz the normal hw r u n bla3...)...

deep in my heart,it reminded me a lot of those days...haiz...

i wanted him 2 noe how much he hurt me...but i really duno how..i tink he din realise oso...wut shud i do,huh?

anyways,tat's all la i wana say...2day,i giv myself 70%...coz i do tink of him sumtimes...crap it!!

*sigh...p/s-get well soon~n try nt 2 contact me back...i will still tot u lyk me if u do so...haiz...T.T

-adios-

im 5n,peeps!!=)

erm...lyfe is so hectic recently...btw,juz finish my exam...
so,urm....i did gr8 in da process of recovering...

i hardly tink of him...haha...so proud of myself...mayb bcoz i pretty bz wit the exams...anyways,let us all juz hope i'll b fine...(gambateh!!)

kla,damn bz lately...tata!!

n i giv myself 110%!!!muahahahaha.....-out-

i cry yest....

i cry yest....i cry bcoz of him again....haiz....

yest i dreamt of him...everything went back 2 normal...we din fight...n we really hav a gr8 time...the dream....it really felt so real....i still not ok....haiz...wut shud i do....

2day,my process of recovering....i giv myself 20%...coz i think about him....haiz....

dun worry,i'll do gr8....i juz nid sum time...pray hard 4 me,peeps!!!i noe i deserve sumone bttr...

will keep tis blog updated frm time 2 time about my process of recovering!!aja2 fighting!!^-^

it has been a while now...

erm..okkkk....

haiz....last week,due to my fren....she kept on askin me 2 go n giv him a call...i mean juz 2 noe the actual reason y we broke up...n i did!!!

ok...it's lyk tat....last 2 weeks,which is fri....erm,i giv him a call b4 i go 2 tuition...the result is devastating....u noe,the reason why i actually think we clash is bcoz we often fight after we couple...but he said it's not the reason...he said bcoz our relationship will end sooner or later...so,that's y he juz end it earlier...at 1st,i was so dumbfounded tat he gav those stupid reasons!!!if lyk tat is the case,y did u ask in da 1st place!!!i shudnt hav agree to couple wit u if lyk tis!!!r u playin wit me??!!

wut do u actually mean when u said,"we goin 2 make tis relationship worked ok??n we'll try 2 make it last long..."wut is tis,dear??izit a joke???i was so hurt when he said tat...i tot of the moments when we r together...how could u use tat stupid excuse...??

if u ask me b4 tis whether i regret a not being ur gal,i'll answer no...but after hearing ur lame n lousy excuse,i dare say i do regret it now...it hurts me a lot 2 noe tat tis is the guy i used 2 luv...

anyhow...being so upset n feeling more heart-broken than eva...,i finally get to noe the reason y...
btw,i heard he got a new gf aldy now...a*** her name is...erm,i noe tis gal...she was his bestfren...n yep...she's a real hot babe..n a sporty type...suits him...better than me...haiz...

btw,my process of recovering is doin gr8!!dun worry...it has been 1 week tat i din think about him at all....n i dun miz him anymore...=)

i hope i'll stay strong...caiyok2!!

i miz him!!!*sigh...

i miz him!!i miz callin him dearie...i read my fren's blog last week...she wrote about her bf..n she called him dearie...i used 2 call him tat...='(

hu3....last 5 days,he called me up...
to btanya khabar sumthin lyk tat...
i miz talking 2 him thru phones...i miz hiis voice...i miz everythin!!the way he laugh...n bla3...

haiz...i noe i haven get over him yet...it takes a while i guess...

i dun wana break-up wit him!!im not ready yet...feel so sad everytime i tot of tat...
my frenz said they sort of guess it a while ago,tat he is not c-rious n juz wanted 2 play wit my feeling...i feel so hurt when they said tat...i believe he's not tat type of person..i really hope so...hu3...coz i really lyk u...

anyway,he change his num 2 maxis aldy..tat time,the 1st time he called me...(i was in da car wit my parents!!) so,we couldnt talk 4 long...then i suggest la...,"we sms la...i got ur msg aldy about ur new num..dun worry.."

then he said he couldnt..coz he's maxis n mine digi..deep n my heart,i feel so hurt...b4 tis,when he 1st 'pikat' me...he is maxis...n mine stil digi..n he's fine wit it...we stil msg everyday...

now everythin come to sense...he dun wana waste any money on me...so sad..*sigh3....

anyway,juz wana tell u tat i miz u a lot...i always tot of those memories we had 2gether...
n actually...im not ok...so,stop appologizing 2 me...coz it doesnt change anythin...

n we'll still b frenz...but i juz not over u yet...it hurts me a lot when u leave me...coz i tot we're fine aldy...n u suppose to make tis relationship last longer...i hold on to it...y cant u do tat...

n i hope u quickly find a gf,so tat i noe i deserve sumone better...n move on wit my lyfe easily...

p/s-sumtimes,i really hope u noe how hurt i feel...i really wana tell all those things tat i write in tis blog 2 u...it's ok...u move on pretty quick...n i noe i shud b feelin hepy 4 u...but im sorry,i not...i duno y...it juz tat now i realize...actually,u din feel bad at all,dumping me...i feel so sad..

i hate tat i luv u....

we r over...4 real...='(

erm...how do i put tis..??erm...juz now,around 7 sumthin,he started 2 msg...
things r normal la...i appologize 4 being moody n tell him about my new skul oso...
he was fine...i mean real fine...then,when i finally tot we r okay aldy...haiz..the fact is...NOT...

ok...erm,i ask y he din msg me aldy....i feel sad n started 2 tink tat he cheat on me...
he said,nolah...he din cheat...n bla3...then after few mins of bla3...,then he said he stil luv me a lot...but he couldnt juz cont. wit me...he said he duno y...but he juz cannot couple wit me anymore...

amazingly,i din cry...i lyk sort of knew it aldy...or mayb bcoz my mom is around...wuteva izit,,i feel lyk a gun shot thru my head n heart...i feel so hurt...i juz uttered,"hm...k..." tat's all!!i duno wut 2 say aldy...he appologize a lot of time...but the fact is it din change anythin...although i din cry,i noe my heart is breaking to million pieces...it's true...tat's how i feel la at tat time...

now...i n him officially r over...haiz...feel veri sad man...i gave my heart aldy 2 him...2moro nid 2 go 2 church liao...gonna pray 2 God 4 strength...haiz...mayb it's actually a gud thing oso la tat we clash aldy now...coz kebetulan i go 2 church 2moro...huhuhu...

n to all bloggers out there...i sincerely wish u guys all the happiness in da world..!!those who r still in a relationship...,gud luck!!n may u guys last long n everlasting!!amen!!

i tink i wont b bloggin in tis blog anymore...tis would b the last time...i might start a new one soon...about my lyfe...coz tis blog mainly is about me n him...since,now is not anymore...,erm...so it's time 4 me 2 move on...*sigh....

kla...i now announce tis is the end between me n him...the end of a luv story between a chinese gal n a malay boy...the end between a gal n a boy who is younger than her...the end when i already gave my heart 2 him...the end when i finally started 2 hav feeling to him...the end..*crying*

gud nite eveyone....-sign out-

i'll gonna stay strong...=)

he din msg me yesterday nite oso...
it's ok i tink...i sort of expected it...let the time to decide...

i veri strong aldy...i din cry tat nite...hm'...
wuteva will b,will b....i shudnt have been so pushy b4 tis...haiz...he nid time i guess...

i knew libra n cancer(me) shudnt start being 2gether in da 1st place...='(