i miz him!!!*sigh...

i miz him!!i miz callin him dearie...i read my fren's blog last week...she wrote about her bf..n she called him dearie...i used 2 call him tat...='(

hu3....last 5 days,he called me up...
to btanya khabar sumthin lyk tat...
i miz talking 2 him thru phones...i miz hiis voice...i miz everythin!!the way he laugh...n bla3...

haiz...i noe i haven get over him yet...it takes a while i guess...

i dun wana break-up wit him!!im not ready yet...feel so sad everytime i tot of tat...
my frenz said they sort of guess it a while ago,tat he is not c-rious n juz wanted 2 play wit my feeling...i feel so hurt when they said tat...i believe he's not tat type of person..i really hope so...hu3...coz i really lyk u...

anyway,he change his num 2 maxis aldy..tat time,the 1st time he called me...(i was in da car wit my parents!!) so,we couldnt talk 4 long...then i suggest la...,"we sms la...i got ur msg aldy about ur new num..dun worry.."

then he said he couldnt..coz he's maxis n mine digi..deep n my heart,i feel so hurt...b4 tis,when he 1st 'pikat' me...he is maxis...n mine stil digi..n he's fine wit it...we stil msg everyday...

now everythin come to sense...he dun wana waste any money on me...so sad..*sigh3....

anyway,juz wana tell u tat i miz u a lot...i always tot of those memories we had 2gether...
n actually...im not ok...so,stop appologizing 2 me...coz it doesnt change anythin...

n we'll still b frenz...but i juz not over u yet...it hurts me a lot when u leave me...coz i tot we're fine aldy...n u suppose to make tis relationship last longer...i hold on to it...y cant u do tat...

n i hope u quickly find a gf,so tat i noe i deserve sumone better...n move on wit my lyfe easily...

p/s-sumtimes,i really hope u noe how hurt i feel...i really wana tell all those things tat i write in tis blog 2 u...it's ok...u move on pretty quick...n i noe i shud b feelin hepy 4 u...but im sorry,i not...i duno y...it juz tat now i realize...actually,u din feel bad at all,dumping me...i feel so sad..

i hate tat i luv u....