we r over...4 real...='(

erm...how do i put tis..??erm...juz now,around 7 sumthin,he started 2 msg...
things r normal la...i appologize 4 being moody n tell him about my new skul oso...
he was fine...i mean real fine...then,when i finally tot we r okay aldy...haiz..the fact is...NOT...

ok...erm,i ask y he din msg me aldy....i feel sad n started 2 tink tat he cheat on me...
he said,nolah...he din cheat...n bla3...then after few mins of bla3...,then he said he stil luv me a lot...but he couldnt juz cont. wit me...he said he duno y...but he juz cannot couple wit me anymore...

amazingly,i din cry...i lyk sort of knew it aldy...or mayb bcoz my mom is around...wuteva izit,,i feel lyk a gun shot thru my head n heart...i feel so hurt...i juz uttered,"hm...k..." tat's all!!i duno wut 2 say aldy...he appologize a lot of time...but the fact is it din change anythin...although i din cry,i noe my heart is breaking to million pieces...it's true...tat's how i feel la at tat time...

now...i n him officially r over...haiz...feel veri sad man...i gave my heart aldy 2 him...2moro nid 2 go 2 church liao...gonna pray 2 God 4 strength...haiz...mayb it's actually a gud thing oso la tat we clash aldy now...coz kebetulan i go 2 church 2moro...huhuhu...

n to all bloggers out there...i sincerely wish u guys all the happiness in da world..!!those who r still in a relationship...,gud luck!!n may u guys last long n everlasting!!amen!!

i tink i wont b bloggin in tis blog anymore...tis would b the last time...i might start a new one soon...about my lyfe...coz tis blog mainly is about me n him...since,now is not anymore...,erm...so it's time 4 me 2 move on...*sigh....

kla...i now announce tis is the end between me n him...the end of a luv story between a chinese gal n a malay boy...the end between a gal n a boy who is younger than her...the end when i already gave my heart 2 him...the end when i finally started 2 hav feeling to him...the end..*crying*

gud nite eveyone....-sign out-

i'll gonna stay strong...=)

he din msg me yesterday nite oso...
it's ok i tink...i sort of expected it...let the time to decide...

i veri strong aldy...i din cry tat nite...hm'...
wuteva will b,will b....i shudnt have been so pushy b4 tis...haiz...he nid time i guess...

i knew libra n cancer(me) shudnt start being 2gether in da 1st place...='(

he dun luv me anymore...=(

hurm...
erm,,he din msg me...i tot 2day,he will msg me...but i was wrong...
feel veri sad now...*sigh...i made the biggest mistake in my lyfe..i tink i really do lyk him...wut shud i do??im so confused rite now...haiz...heart-broken rite now...i feel really sad he din even try 2 pjuk me...

he always msg me back on fri...but now,not anymore...i wont msg him aldy...if things r meant 2 b tis way,i'll accept it...

haiz...so sad things turn out tis way...bcoz of him,i feel really hepy all tis while...n bcoz of him oso,i feel tis much hurt...i guess he wont msg me anymore aldy...haiz...

pray hard 4 me,ppl!!i gonna b strong!! nid sum time though..*sigh2x...anyway,thx 4 everything,dearie...='(

hmm...='(

yesterday,he really din msg me oso...feel veri sad...haiz...he's driving me crazy man...i really duno whether we r still a couple or not..if yes,,y we r not lyk others wan leh??sob2...isk2...

2day,i got merentas desa in skool....haiz...tired man...walking under the rain the whole morning...i scared i fever oni la..*sigh...

back 2 the topic me n him...erm,,btw,yesterday nite,b4 i sleep...i wish him gud nite...i noe i said tat i wont start 2 msg him 1st...sori...cant resist myself..i feel really bad...(feel veri sorry 2 myself 4 being so desperate n not strong enough...)*sigh...n he din reply tat msg oso...i pjuk myself mayb he fall asleep aldy la coz tat time when i sms him gud nite,,it's aldy 1 sumthin in da morning...veri late liau...

veri tired man...it seemed lyk i was the only one trying to keep our relationship on...haiz...feel lyk crying man...i veri sensitif aldy nowadays...haiz...i feel i luv him more than he luv me..wut shud i do ar??*sigh...;(

we fight again!!veri sad leh...='(

hurm...yesterday,i sms him..then we fight...
lyk tis..actually he start exam next week...not tis week...i din noe...
i tot tis week...as i have mentioned in my previous post b4 tis la...so,tat's y la i din msg him...dun wana disturb him...but one of my fren say,we dun need 2 msg so long wan wut..he can simply juz msg me gud nite or wutsoeva...coz the prob is i really miz him a lot when we din msg..i noe i sounded lyk love-sicked...*sigh...but it's true...!!i feel lyk im being used coz when he is free,then oni he come n find 4 me...i dun want things 2 happen tat way...so,i planned 2 do lyk the way my fren suggested...

plus,in fact,b4 we bcom a couple,we really msg everyday!!i miz those moments..haiz...i hope he understand how i feel la..then yest nite,i wana talk about tis.. i do tell him sum of the points...then suddenly he called me 2 call him coz he aldy feel sleepy!!geram lorh!!how can he feel sleepy in the middle of c-rious discussion??!im so dissapointed...then i said,"4get about the things tat i say b4 tis la...juz go 2 sleep n bye...bla3...sumthin lyk tat la...

then,he said i mrajuk!!n he oso said he kinda tension wit me coz i always b so moody...haiz...
can u imagine how sad i feel when he said tat...i cry myself 2 sleep man tat nite...*sigh...

we really fight a lot aldy la...i feel veri hard 2 understand him...all i want is juz a gud nite wish frm him every nite...i noe i pretty troublesome...coz he's buzy studying 4 his exam...but it's juz tat we r couple wut...not juz normal fren...plus,do u hav any idea how long i waited 4 his msgs at nite...??

n my fren said when her bf cheated on her...she said tat those r the signs tat ur bf cheated on u...im afraid it happen 2 me..*sigh3x...i juz wana feel secure...plus,we r so far apart rite now...haiz...wut if he fell in luv wit other younger gals??!!i need him 2 reassured me tat he always thinking about me....luving me n bla3...

i got lotsa things 2 tell about my new skool..i mean coz now i started my f6 aldy wut...haiz...but now we fight..how 2 tell worh??!!i hate it when we fight...my fren called me not 2 msg him aldy n let him pujuk me instead..but deep down in my heart,i scared he wont...b4 tis i got confident tat he'll pujuk la...now not anymore...i scared la...

u noe a not...b4 tis..when we started couple,really veri sweet la...whenever,he feel i moody or merajuk,he will call me...haiz...how i miz those time....now,he always say he feel fed-up wit me...how could he say tat??!i feel hurt a lot actually..but i neva tell him tat...i used 2 tell him tat im veri sensitif..but i guess,he din listen 2 me oso tat time...haiz...

rite now,i juz keep hanging on..i wont start msg 2 him 1st la meanwhile...i hope he really cares about tis relationship...n start 2 msg me 1st...i really hope he does...='( i feel lyk crying aldy now..*sigh...

how come we bcom lyk tis aldy leh??haiz.........kla.......luv u still,dear...=(

he got exam!!hahaha...

hola!!!
erm...he got exam tis week...so,we wont b msging so often..dun wana disturb him when he study mah...adoi...pity him...

btw,now im starting my f6 aldy...huhuhu...juz have couple of frens..feel veri out of place leh..haiz...opps!!sori...i shud talking about me and him oni rite in tis blog??erm,wuteva..nuthin much 2 tell la 4 2day...yesterday,get 2 sms wit him oni lorh...he dun mind i go 2 f6...hehehe...feel pretty discourage at 1st...but in da end,i wana take it as a challenge!!i wana do well in my stpm!!muahahahaah..^0^

he havent sms me yet 2nite...haiz...shud i start 1st??tis few days i aldy start 2 sms him aldy...haiz..i scared i show tat im pretty clingy 2 him...mayb i not goin 2 start sms la 2nite...i oso scared tat i'll disturb him studying...huhuhu...

kla,gud luck dearie!!n gud luck 2 2 all ppl out there who is havin their exam tis week!!gambateh!!
aja2 fighting!!XP

we r ok aldy!!

hi 2 all!!

we both ok aldy....hehehe...damn glad things went smoothly...
he called me 2 call him...in the end,we discussed 2gether...almost clash at 1st!!c-riously!!
haiz...thx God,he try 2 hang on...and we finally agree 2 giv our relationship one more try...

i really veri hepy...at 1st,it was really sad...he said things r diff nowadays...he is pretty bz so he always sleep early at nite(which is the time when we start msging..)

so,i will always feel tpinggir...n we hardly spent time 2gether...so,he feels tat he veri hard 2 understand me la nowadays...coz i always moody n merajuk..(i knew it!!hahaha...btw,tat time,actually i juz wana attract his attention..i din noe it'll turn out tis bad...=(

tat time,i tot he wana clash...!!so,i said," it's ok la...i'll b fine...i oso dun wana force u if u aldy dun hav any feelings to me anymore...anyway,i neva regret being ur gf..."huhuhu...

pening la i...he actually dun wana clash...he said he still hav feelings 2 me...it juz tat things r tough tis few days...so,tat's y la we always fight...(i was crying lyk hell aldy tat time...)p/s-he din noe tat i cry..sshhh...hahaha..*embarrased...coz there are times when i din utter a word..tat is bcoz i was crying...huhuhu...

i lyk the part when he said tat he still veri in luv wit me!!!hahahaha...i damn cair tat time...really feel touch man...hmm'....(",)

btw,we cont msg tat nite...veri late...until almost 3 am then oni we sleep...msg details...erm..(private n confidential!!muahahahaha...)

btw,yesterday n 2nite...,we din msgs each other...coz i pretty bz wit my jpa rayuan...haiz..so sad...i din get jpa...so now,i really started 2 miz him a lot!!hahhaa...damn la...i started 2 angau aldy...haiz...hahaha...

n one more thing i wana share in here...tat time,when we talk 2 each other...(i mean the almost clash process la..) tat moment is really sweet n nice...there was tis one part when we both r so sound-trouble!!hahaha..really veri funny tat time...

btw,i wana add 2 'the common things between me n him' list...tat we r actually both left-handed!!cool huh??so,we r left-handed couples!!!hahahah...i really din noe...coz i tot he is rite...well u noe,,most ppl r rite wut...so,i assume he oso la...anyways,i glad we r both left...hahaha...

kla..dunno wut 2 write aldy..actually wana share n tell a lot of things...but nvm la...not really in da mood now...kla..btw,now i started 2 b more understanding 2 him aldy...hehehe...gotta prepare 2 f6 aldy 2moro...haiz...nyte everyone!!adios!!n luv ya,dear...!

we hav nuthin in common 4 god sake!!haiz..lyfe is tough...

me and him...

btw,actually...we both hardly hav anythin in common..except for the fact that we both luv kickapoo..hak3...

k2...erm...starting wit hobby!!im definitely not a sport person!!i meant i juz lyk basketball bcoz i get 2 see lotsa cute guys!!hahaha...(im a bad gal...hahaha)but he's into sport...he is really gud in sports!!especially futsal...haiz..but i into swimming...hehehe..it's true!!i mean not bcoz i get to c all those hotties in their swimming trunks!!^-^ i really like swimming..i guess swimming oso can b counted in sports rite??ahakz!!

btw,next...in colours..i lyk bright colours!!i luv pink,red and yellow!!while,he luvs blue...(my least fav colour!!can u imagine tat??!)haiz...

then,ice-cream...i like vanilla actually...but i lied 2 him saying that i like chocolate ice-cream bcoz i wana him 2 think tat actually we hav more thing in common..which is sooo not true....haiz...

then if fruits,i like banana!!which he hate 2 eat...n he luvs grapes..*sigh...

im a dog person...hehehe..which means i luv DOGS!!to be exact...PUPPIES!!!especially the bulldog type..u can c the 1st photo..it's a french bulldog species..veri cute!!hahaha...while of coz la..he's a malay(so,he definitely dun like dogs)..so,he's more into cats..but he pretty scared of cats aldy due to sum incident in the past..(cute huh??hehehe..)cant believe tat he's afraid of cats...

erm...wut else ar...anyways...we both are pretty much 2 diff person..i mean im the gud type...always obey the rules...hahaha...while he erm...*sigh again....he luvs getting into fight..i wonder izit all boys oso lyk tat??haiz...my bro is a gud one i can say...and tis is oso part of the topics tat we always argue...i mean lyk he always get into trouble...which i really dun lyk...so,i will nag him..i noe he hates tat but i meant gud!!haiz..boys r so hard 2 understand...y u guyz lyk 2 get into fights??izit it's a way 2 show off tat u r cool or macho??*sigh3x...

p/s-btw if u r a guy n u r reading tis..pliz think of ur luv ones when u got into a fight...to me...,i juz need 2 feel secure frm him...i couldnt bear if anything happen to him...so,,guys...juz stay out of fight if u can...

it hurts a lot...

hi 2 all...i juz started tis blog...tot of blogging can help me 2 loosen up a bit..things r goin pretty hectic 4 me these days...we fought a lot recently...

i n him started dating on 28 march 2009...hehehe...it's been more than a month aldy we've been 2gether...things r gr8 at 1st...but not anymore...

he said i change a lot...he couldnt understand me anymore..im feeling so hurt...btw,he is younger than me for 2 years...n the most important is he's a malay..n im a chinese...i noe b4 i accept him,we r goin 2 faced prob about our religion...but i really lyk him...n so does he...so,we tot of giving it a try n make our relationship as long as we can...

back 2 the story...yesterday,he said he need sum time 2 try 2 accept me as who i am(it's bcoz he felt i change a lot)..deep in my heart,i knew it's not about tat..he actually need sum time 2 figure out whether is there still have any feeling for me...i dunno...mayb im juz thinking too much...to me,i still luv him..but i dunno whether he still luv me a not...i realized tat he is not happy anymore being wit me coz lyk i said b4 tis..we argue a lot..i cry lyk hell tat night...

i juz hope 2 make it work again...i dun wana lose him yet...anyway,to all bloggers..

tis is our 1st chapter of our relationship...he didnt noe tat i hav a blog...i created it without his knowlegde...hahaha...

btw,if we r ok aldy...i will continue blogging about me and him...i still need u,dear...in my life...luv ya!!!