we fight again!!veri sad leh...='(

hurm...yesterday,i sms him..then we fight...
lyk tis..actually he start exam next week...not tis week...i din noe...
i tot tis week...as i have mentioned in my previous post b4 tis la...so,tat's y la i din msg him...dun wana disturb him...but one of my fren say,we dun need 2 msg so long wan wut..he can simply juz msg me gud nite or wutsoeva...coz the prob is i really miz him a lot when we din msg..i noe i sounded lyk love-sicked...*sigh...but it's true...!!i feel lyk im being used coz when he is free,then oni he come n find 4 me...i dun want things 2 happen tat way...so,i planned 2 do lyk the way my fren suggested...

plus,in fact,b4 we bcom a couple,we really msg everyday!!i miz those moments..haiz...i hope he understand how i feel la..then yest nite,i wana talk about tis.. i do tell him sum of the points...then suddenly he called me 2 call him coz he aldy feel sleepy!!geram lorh!!how can he feel sleepy in the middle of c-rious discussion??!im so dissapointed...then i said,"4get about the things tat i say b4 tis la...juz go 2 sleep n bye...bla3...sumthin lyk tat la...

then,he said i mrajuk!!n he oso said he kinda tension wit me coz i always b so moody...haiz...
can u imagine how sad i feel when he said tat...i cry myself 2 sleep man tat nite...*sigh...

we really fight a lot aldy la...i feel veri hard 2 understand him...all i want is juz a gud nite wish frm him every nite...i noe i pretty troublesome...coz he's buzy studying 4 his exam...but it's juz tat we r couple wut...not juz normal fren...plus,do u hav any idea how long i waited 4 his msgs at nite...??

n my fren said when her bf cheated on her...she said tat those r the signs tat ur bf cheated on u...im afraid it happen 2 me..*sigh3x...i juz wana feel secure...plus,we r so far apart rite now...haiz...wut if he fell in luv wit other younger gals??!!i need him 2 reassured me tat he always thinking about me....luving me n bla3...

i got lotsa things 2 tell about my new skool..i mean coz now i started my f6 aldy wut...haiz...but now we fight..how 2 tell worh??!!i hate it when we fight...my fren called me not 2 msg him aldy n let him pujuk me instead..but deep down in my heart,i scared he wont...b4 tis i got confident tat he'll pujuk la...now not anymore...i scared la...

u noe a not...b4 tis..when we started couple,really veri sweet la...whenever,he feel i moody or merajuk,he will call me...haiz...how i miz those time....now,he always say he feel fed-up wit me...how could he say tat??!i feel hurt a lot actually..but i neva tell him tat...i used 2 tell him tat im veri sensitif..but i guess,he din listen 2 me oso tat time...haiz...

rite now,i juz keep hanging on..i wont start msg 2 him 1st la meanwhile...i hope he really cares about tis relationship...n start 2 msg me 1st...i really hope he does...='( i feel lyk crying aldy now..*sigh...

how come we bcom lyk tis aldy leh??haiz.........kla.......luv u still,dear...=(